Quiet, i know

Ok, know i have been a little quiet, my mom had called me friday afternoon while i was at work (she is 3 hours later than i am). It seemed like an odd time for a call from her and i was in the middle of doing a set of eyelash extensions on someone. I commented later to a person at work as i sat getting ready to check my messages. She asked what was up, i had said i was almost afraid to check my messages as i had a bad feeling that my grandmother had died. She was ill but we had just had the doctors give her a 4-6 month prognosis. Nothing out of the ordinary on the message though so.... next morning my phne rang as i was getting ready for work and hubby answered. After he came in i had told him how the day before i had been afraid to check my messages. He just gave me a hug and said that was my mom just on the phone and that gram had died the evening before. I know she lived a full life and having been so ill for so long that she is in a better place and with grandad now, i don't know if it is guilt that we have not been in close touch lately (i even had a card on the counter ready to mail to her with a pic of my daughter), that due to long distances i had not seen her in a long time....yeah, i guess guilt. I know my gram was not a perfect lady, especially to my mom when she was growing up. Gram i do have to say always stuck by me as i was growing up. I feel badly now though. It seems so many family members have been passing away over the last few years. lol, i guess we are all just getting older, sucks though, smile. So i may be a bit quiet here and there for a few days more. She was my last grandparent (as my dads mom and i have no relationship, sadly that side of the family disappeared years ago) So leapyear had an additional memory now. That's all....